Saturday, March 05, 2005

After a long leave of absence

Amazingly a lot of people have asked me why I haven't posted in a long time.;.. Reason being.. There was nothing to post or I just wasn't in the mood... :)

Life has been good... No complaints... Family problems have come down to a minimum with the eventual "why are you so late?" lectures... Its amazing how stupid some people can be.. I think the best way to measure a persons 'idiotisy' is probably by counting the number of times they repeat a question... And imagine one person that asks the same question everything he sees you... What do you call him???

It seems like I lost touch with most of my friends abroad... At the same time BD has opened up a new chapter in my book...Life can be a lot of things and it can be monotonous as well...

I think Douglas McGregor said it the best "...To set your priorities and to achieve efficiency, you have to learn to say NO!!"

"when your not being centered to one object... You will be the center of other objects" if you can figure this out... Your golden...

Saturday, January 08, 2005

Never is easy to be the Bigger Man...

Ever seen those movies, where it begins my this guy talking in the background about something or the other...Lately that's been happening to me every time I am out driving... My head just floats away and thousand of thoughts just come RUSHING into my head all at the same time.. Even scenarios play back and forth again and again... For example, ever seen those guys who keep there high beam on just to annoy the car upfront....Well I have more than once in the last 3 weeks, and in my head I feel like Pressing the brakes hard and just ruining the guys head lights... I mean I can see almost every detail right down to me being thrown out of my own car played back in my head...
Ok fine this is a little out there but its just weird what goes through your head while driving...

Also, even had to be the bigger man in which case you had to take a "higher" road etc etc... I HATE being the bigger person! I just hate it as all it is saying is, your having to give up something you want, badly I might add... You get nothing out of being the bigger person, there is no value for it...Yes maybe an once of feeling Good momentarily but after a while, your wishing you hadn't been the bigger person! And your miserable all over again!!

Its no wonder why they say "Nice guys finish last.." Its totally true... People expect you to be good, you are good..that's it... You get no satisfaction, no nothing....Strange I tell you, or more like unfair?!

Cheers!!

PS: For those of you who think I am goonna crash... Haha Very funny guys...

Sunday, January 02, 2005

another day in life...

It seems like everyday of my life can be completed by a sentence or even 2 words... "So hey what did you do today?"...Reply "O' Nothing...”

The last 2 weeks that have gone by that supposedly I was supposed to be in vacation, I have spent the days and passing night, either shopping, for someone else I might add or attending family dinners which isn’t as glamorous as it sounds....

A week later I have to go back to BD and start my university again, and truth be know, I have never been so uneasy about it... A lot of the times you just seem to stare out into no where or nothingness (as some once put it) and find a buddle of thoughts that haven’t been ever fulfilled...

I know people say, "stick it out", "there are worst things in life"...what does that mean...does that mean i should worry about whats to come and not give a thought to what is now? And if I do that, how do I know when I am supposed to worry about it...You just end up worrying about something that will never come...If that’s the case I rather worry about 'what is' rather that 'what is not'...

A day goes by, a week goes by...and it never seems to change much... When someone said time heals all, they were talking biologically...

Thursday, December 30, 2004

Get well soon...

I was watching this movie, "Get well soon" [yes I was that bored] and its basically about this guy, who loves someone but doesn't get the love back from her and hence is depressed...
Yes your average love sick guy story but in this movie the guy holds the girl responsible for his Depressive state...

Yes not a big thing, but I was just thinking... I am in somewhat of a similar situation...Can I blame all the times of depression on her? No I cant....

Sometimes I think I should just go up to her and BLAB all of it out... Just go up to her and say it ... "________ I love you"...See what I mean even now I am scared to take her name....

haha O well there goes that idea...

Cheers...

Sunday, December 26, 2004

Something from the heart...

A friend asked me today if I had someone special...And out of nowhere all this came out...It was an interesting read for me after I wrote it! And it was as from the heart as anything else....

if love was meant for me, I would have found it by now... So I don't look I
don't search instead I reside in my own world where there is bliss, peace and love for all sorts of people not only one...
Cheers...

Saturday, December 25, 2004

a place for class of 2002 to post

Hey Students of BIS Class of 2002...

If any of you guys are reading this post, we made a new yahoo groups for our class
the address is

http://groups.yahoo.com/group/jinxedbyjello

It started as a tribute to Mrs. Jean but me and Lulu figured its a great place for the gang to hangout online..neways

Cheers!

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

Home is where the heart is....

So I am back home....aka Parents apartment! Its kindda funny that the place I consider home is in Canada, and the place that is home is where I am and the place that I have to call home is in BD....


Its so different here, I actually am enjoying the time out from life as not many people get a time out, specially from LIFE!!! And I don't mean I have died and will be reincarnated in a week or 2, or ANYTHING scary or spiritual like that...But what I mean is, I can wake up in the morning, not worry about what I have to do (as I have NOTHING to do) and clear my mind as I know my parents are around to help me through any problems I might get into....
I don't know how many people feel that but parents are such a blessing in ones life...Even if you consider the security you get when your around them!!!Anyways...NO I am not a deprived child you evil people!


A friend of mine told me that she read part of one of my blogs and stopped reading half way as she thought that what I wrote was too personal to be giving it out this publicly...Now I can understand why someone would say that but her question came to mind as its amazing that so many people tell you..."Your pretending", "Your lieing", "I don't know you" and so on...Well this blog is a me! True most of the blogs are moments of thoughts that lasted for as long as it takes to finish a POLO..(the mint with a hole :D)...But anyway...Plus most of my private thoughts are still in my head...Sorry folks there are still something that cannot be said...;)


I actually feel a great relief now that I am back home, the day goes by without a worry in my mind...Haven't had that in a VERY LONG TIME...The thought that comes to my mind is...Life is so short, and yet we spend it on such trivial matters and worries that shouldn't have been a problem to begin with.. Yet knowing this...We still do it...hmmmmmmmmmm